Another Stellar Sayonara…
Hmm, gawa nga ulet ako ng ganito.. Been a long time since I made something like this (2nd-ish college?). And if you’re reading this, well, I might just remove this post anyway so, better read up what’s bugging my brains out lately…
I’m posting this, so that I might eventually put closure into the whole thing… coz it’s being a huge detriment already… but then again, im probably just wired in a way that when I see something linkable to thee, silent wars break off inside my head, seriously…
Yet again, the circumstances are against me… yet again I chose to pursue thee…
Yet again I never really recover… yet again it ended in disaster.
I might choose another easy way out… oh wait, I already used my “get-out-of-jail-card”… I have nowhere to run anymore, worse, I’m doomed to end up closer to where the action is.
Part of growing up? Letting go? There’s always another, waiting to be found?? I outgrew that kind of thinking many years ago. Logic is what drives me now. And frankly, it resulted in a better perspective, albeit, a pessimistic one. You know what they say about being a pessimist, “it’s either you’re right, or your surprised.” “Some” might say that a perspective like this is bad, and it’s bad to hang out with this people. Screw “them”, I have lots of people who can vouch for my “good” company…
Well, back to sucking up defeat… wait, did I just admit defeat? Am I just gonna leave it at that? Probably… I don’t have solid facts yet (I choose to classify them as evidences), but it’s all pointing to the other direction, so, yeah, it is what it is… but then, a question addressed to myself pops in the back of my head… How will you deal with it?
Well, it’s not as BIG as to the one I had with a certain bear (hell, this is sub-atomic compared to that), so it might just slip. Pero, I must admit, envy does kick in, especially when (censored, too much detail, not that anonymous anymore). Lryric in playing in my mind: “that’s just the way it is, things will never be the same – from some hiphop song”…
Now, how to close this essay… well, a stellar sayonara is in place.
“ill probably be seeing in the near future, but I wont give in to primal urges, even though I know that you’ll be intoxicatingly good when you and I are one. (deleted a long, negative rant here…) hope you end up in good hands, although… anyway…
“Sayonara, Vodka Cruiser.” I was intoxicated by you, but now its time to be sober again.
-chalo
P.S. this was the original purpose of “Rhummed Literature”, all guitar effects and the like are just a side show, (more likely, tamad lng ako gumawa ng separate page for “Mischief Electronix”).
